Six more days, and the most awaited day for some... or I should say many, is here.
I still remember the day when I heard of this "Valentine's Day". It was told over the news with the news of "Shiv Sainiks" attacking the different greeting card shops and flower stalls over the "foreign" culture invading India. I too supported the Shiv Sainiks then. (I had to, I had no girl to give a rose to. If I gave a rose to my then crush, I would have surely got thrashed beyond recognition).
The next year, I had no news of what happened on the Valentine's Day. I believe this time also, some shop owners booked losses on account of attacks and some others booked profits for heavier sales of flowers and cards.
The next 'turning point' came when I was in the college. I saw many couples going around on the Valentine's Day. Lots of hugs, lots of kisses and lots of roses exchanged. This time, I did wish that my then crush would accept a rose(if I had the balls to give one, that is). But I was lucky enough that though I did not give any rose, no one else dared to give one to her either. I was as happy as I would have been if she had accepted a thousand roses offered by me. ;-)
The next three Valentine's Days also passed in a similar fashion. Just like me, no one dared to give any rose to my crushes.
But the Valentine's Day after I left the college was a special one. This time, I was a stronger person. I gathered enough strength to send a rose to all the girls I had a crush on. It's not a mystery how I gathered this strength. After all, I was sending them all a Yellow Rose, and that too not a real one, only a photo of the yellow rose.
To play a safer game, however, I added even those girls in the list on whom I was not "fida". So that I could always point to another girl, whom I did not have any crush on, if a girl I had crush on would ask me why I sent the flower only to her. It's a different story that no girl asked me why I sent the flower. I only heard "Thank You" or nothing at all from the recipients.
This time, the plan is small. I would most likely not send a Yellow Rose to anyone. I would not send a red rose either. I plan to keep this time's Valentine's Day a silent one. I do not want to heat my head over which girl I like and which I do not. Coz the girl I like would anyway go away from me, and the girl I do not like...... well, why do I need to care for a girl I do not like?
Things would never change in a while, it took years for Himalayas to form, and same is with me. It would take years for me to form "love" in my mind.
I've heard "Love Happens", does it actually "Happen"?